Fallen

How the mighty have fallen...

In walking to work today I made a few mistakes. The first was listening to Thom Yorke (The lead singer from radiohead.) It's dark, trippy music and it stirs thoughts that are better left lying in the back of my mind.

In considering these "dark" thoughts, I came to realize that I am less of the man I would like to be. I don't want a relationship because I haven't met anyone who I feel understands my thoughts, and at the same time being alone gets tiring.

I've never been the kind of guy who could be with someone without some emotional attachment and if God shows me mercy I never will be, but why do we have to find ourselves alone so often in searching for life's mysteries? This may be a little of that Emo spirit that Alex says comes with every blog, but it's my thoughts for the moment and it is a low for me.

It just feels as though it would be so nice to hold someone just to reattach with that facet of my humanity. To not feel outside of life, but there's no one around that I would be able to hold in stillness. I guess it goes back to some of my earlier thoughts that we are all together in moving through life. No one has all of the answers or a book that tells you the right way to live, so why are we so separate? And why do we pair off into groups of two putting the rest of humanity on the outside of shared life experience?

Why can't we just all belong to each other? I think I may have been born in the wrong era.

I'm not talking about free love here, or commune living, I'm just saying people should be able to love together and live together. People should be free and interdependent. Where do you find that?